Questioner: So all our lives we are just accumulating concepts (?), I mean ‘Vyarth Jivan’*?
Rajee: Yes, but Is it not so good to see it like this before you leave this body? So you still have chance to know something Really? And I want to tell you, it’s so joyful to know something Really; Joyful without any external cause, or dependency on anybody or any situation.
You are naturally, independently happy. You are happy and independent from every situation and activity and flow of life. I want to tell you, it is worth. It is so good actually. But you have to acknowledge it. And shouting at garbage also is not really wise, ‘What damn you garbage, how you are here?’ There is no point. You will still waste your time. Let it go. You forgive it, forgive your garbage. I know this tendency also, like anger comes, like ‘I wasted my time’. No you did not actually. You liked this form of knowledge, that’s why you accumulated but now you are more conscious, now you don’t like it, now you like something more pure than this, more direct than this, more authentic than this. That time also you were not wrong, now also you are not wrong. It’s just different, and it is a bit sudden maybe, that’s why you’re not, your mind is not getting chance to digest it, that’s all. But still you are choosing it.
I want to tell you this, Wake Up, don’t try to control this, you cannot control it – Wake Up (to the fact) that I cannot control it and then you will be untouched by it actually. Because what is collapsing in you and what is being affected by this collapsing is not really what you are, and that’s the call, this is the Wake up call for you. This is the call that, ‘OK, let me see, then, (you will realize) what really I have and what really I am’, like this. Only keep what you really have, like breathing, it cannot be separated from you, so this knowledge if it is like breathing, keep it. Or you don’t have to keep it anyway. Anything you have to keep, let go. So that’s what life is doing; by the way It is happening forcefully, you can do it voluntarily. It is OK, let it go. I will let go everything which I have to maintain so that I can see what cannot be separated from me.
So just be firm in this clarity and all is well because if you are something which can be affected, meaning if you are something which can be disturbed by anything outside of you, anything that happens outside of you, yourself or inside of yourself, it is better that it is disturbed so you know that it can be disturbed. How to, why to keep this stability which is not a stability?
Why not expose yourself, why not encounter your vulnerability which is inside you, and beyond that is the stability of the Being, which you can say is anti-fragile, Anti-fragile – It rejoices in the challenges of life, anything that comes to it like, ‘Let’s see what happens’, you know like this, this is your Being, this is your true nature. Fragility is only limited to the level where ego exists, the set up. Beyond that, the Being, the Presence that you are, is Anti-fragile, it doesn’t mind collapsing of anything you know like this, so remember this, OK? Spend time more in meditating, in this Simple Seeing, even if second step only. When not able to stay in the second step, see the first step, it is OK to feel fear of collapsing into third step, so don’t do it, no problem. But first and second step then will be very valuable for you, and very soon you will desire to merge actually. Right now you fear to merge, after some time you will desire to merge, you will pray to merge actually, ‘Hey, I want to merge please, it’s kind of unbearable to be separate from my own Self’, like this, so just do it, OK?
(Excerpts from Online Meeting dated 24th February, 2018)
* ‘Vyarth Jivan’ is a hindi word which literally means meaningless life