Opening up in Satsang

Questioner: I just would like to come forward and meet, because there’s this little bit nervousness to come forward and speak, because there’s this feeling, ‘I don’t have anything to say and if to come forward and meet I have think about something to say’. This makes me a little bit uneasy, thank you.

Rajee – I feel like this, all the fear, all the hesitation, all the sense of, kind of inferiority or anything like this which stops us from opening up and connecting is ego, no? So not opening up is ego, opening up is your natural state, no? Like this. But whenever we try to open up outward, meaning to someone who is living in the personal space or state of consciousness, we kind of feel like we are filled by their feelings or emotions or energies and things like this. It looks like not a nice experience generally, and in the spiritual sense it is true also, up to some degree. So this is why you are invited to come to satsang and open up here. Because satsang is not a person but the very space, very presence of life, presence of existence. Very highlighted, it’s like very highlighted, like dominant, it’s very dominant here. And the mind and the personal tendencies are very low and kind of don’t exist basically in the light of satsang. So it’s all about opening up. Whenever you feel like this open up, that’s all, that’s all. It’s never about achieving anything because nothing can be added to you. Even if it was possible, it will be worthless compared to what you are already. You are this pure existence which is so very undivided and originally so that there is no gap for any quality to enter except its own inherent quality of being empty, present, silent, peaceful. So in the ultimate sense of waking up, all that you have to do is open up, open up, open up in the right environment, I would say the right environment is this togetherness of satsang, where no personal mind is working or trying to achieve anything.

In satsang you open up like this by encountering the Truth. The satsang, highest possibility in the satsang is encounter with the Truth. For no other reason just you want to face the Truth. And the process is – Open up, meaning, the process is that you feel kind of closed for some reason, like it’s just you can sense somehow very quickly or very clearly as you have sensed just now that it’s little bit like this, ‘OK, I will just come forward and ..’ You just want to be your Self now. You don’t want to achieve anything. So this is the Being which is asking this question or coming forward like this. It’s just so wonderful actually. Then I don’t have to teach you anything. You don’t have to learn also anything. And we just have to meet like this for some time until necessary. So that I can present my Self and offer my stillness as the mirror to you so that you can clearly see who you are. Satsang is that environment in which it becomes very, very simple and kind of very comfortable or easy also to kind of feel your Self when you are interested. Satsang is not really a place for growth or achievement of any sort in a spiritual way. It is a place to kind of acknowledge and value your Self. You are encouraged somehow.

What do you feel?

Questioner: Yes, I feel very much encouraged to open up and I feel this past few satsangs is really beautiful because I’m really in ‘This’, and not much discussion. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you

(Excerpts from Online Focus Group, 26th July, 2018)

Connected to the very fire of This-ness

Questioner: Hello, I have nothing to say, actually just no-one else was speaking so, I just clicked the button.

Rajee – Oh, yes, yes it’s nice. Because this is the highest possibility here, interaction, like this. Interaction not so much for solving anything or asking a question but more like – I just want to be online or how to say, connected to the very fire of This-ness. It’s really very valuable when it is done without any intention. Because then, it is basically coming from the very depth of your Self. Because ego is very happy when it has achieved some kind of sense of presence – little bit of a sense of understanding that ‘OK, this is what is happening today and I am doing well’. But the Being that you are, wants to burst open fully into what you are, and for that it is kind of ready to do everything. That everything looks nice but I still want to take chance and see what happens. Because ultimately what is happening, is meeting, is just meeting happening. Essentially there is nothing, nothing really being said or nothing being understood actually, fundamentally. All that is happening is just part of preparing, you are preparing yourself in a way to face the Truth of your Self inside you. The face, the Truth of this moment.

In a normal sense, you are the student, I am the teacher and I, the teacher, will continue trying to help you. You, the student, will try to take the help. But in a deeper sense, when you are open to face this Truth, I am your Truth, you are my Truth. You are my Truth beyond my-ness here. I am your Truth beyond your my-ness there. And if you face this Truth, that sense of my-ness, that hypnosis of my-ness breaks actually. This is the value of meeting also, no? So not what I am saying is important right now when you have come like this, I am important for you right now. My existence here has to be acknowledged by you right now as much as you can, which cannot be fully acknowledged by you in the ‘my’ state or this state of my-ness, I-ness. If you are encouraged to acknowledge my existence then you have to break out of this climate of I, my. And then as you are acknowledging what remains? ‘This’, which is not mine, which is not yours, and sense of mine in you and in me maybe belongs to ‘This’, arises from ‘This’, arises in ‘This’, lived by ‘This’. There is nobody else here which needs to be free from ego. Nobody else beloved, there is always Truth, which is living as This, sometime as limitation, sometime as This. Its own decision. No job given to anyone here to do anything particularly.

(Excerpts from Focus Group, 26th July, 2018)

A feeling to Dissolve

Questioner – Bhaiya, I have a feeling to dissolve.

Rajee – You have feeling to dissolve. Ah! How nice. 
This feeling to dissolve is very beautiful and deep feeling, no? And yet this feeling to dissolve dissolves in front of you, inside you, leaving the pure space which does not need to be claimed or achieved by you because you are it. So don’t do anything about it. It is a very deep desire and it’s very fiery also. Feeling to dissolve cannot serve the ego, cannot help the ego to become stronger or thick, but it also cannot help the Truth in any way, so it cannot help you become more what you are already. So don’t entertain this but also don’t fight with it. It is like a fire, automatic fireworks going on inside you. You just let it be the way it is. It is a part of the process and it is the fire that is going on inside you that, ‘I feel like dissolving’. Who feels like dissolving? The space? The sky that you are inside you? How it can dissolve? into what? So this feeling to dissolve, let it dissolve. It will dissolve by itself. This feeling to dissolve is also containing that ‘I am there and I must dissolve before I can be my Self’. So this ‘feeling’ and this what is inside this feeling, ‘I’, both will dissolve by itself. You just stay in the fire of satsang here and in your Self. In your Self just stay as whatever you are now. Just don’t entertain it, don’t do anything about it. It is already undoing something inside you, which is the grace of life actually, Grace of God, that God has turned his face towards you, saying ‘Hello beloved, how are you?’ (smiles) So it’s a beautiful auspicious occasion in you, in your life.
What do you feel?

Questioner: Thank you, thank you Bhaiya.

(Excerpts from Online Focus Group, 26th July, 2018)

Two only most valuable things

Beloveds, in this whole show, in this whole activity of teacher and student combination, teaching, satsang, instructions, following the instructions, pointing, following the pointing, darshan, meeting, there are only two things which are most valuable, everything else is kind of gradually changing and need to change and will change. The most valuable thing that is You and Me. These are the two only most valuable things and these are the only two Truths here, which are not two, but it’s alright to keep, feel it like two right now. These are the two only most valuable things here – You and Me. Not what you say, not what you do, not what I say, not what I do. The sooner you understand this the better. Because then we can have a real meeting, awakening meeting, a meeting which is enlightening meeting. Not that you are trying to fix things. When you are trying to fix things what are you doing exactly? Are you not trying to fix things of the ego? If you may allow me to say like this, You are trying to fix things or the problems of the ego, not the problem called ego, which creates all the problem by the way.

True knowledge happens in the depth, in the presence of your own Self. So you just stay in the presence and let everything happen, all the knowledge, all the true knowledge and experiencing take place. This is the best thing one can understand at the mind level that I cannot understand anything which can give me juice of life, which can give me happiness and excitement. And then you find someone, some situation, some teacher, teaching, some satsang or some technique also sometime to find that thing where you really understand something like, ‘Is there any place inside me where I can understand something Truly, not like in the mind level?’. At the mind level everything can be challenged. Everything that you understand can be challenged, it is just that the figure which is challenging has to be bigger than you energetically, which can create doubt in you, that ‘Are you sure you understand this?’, and you feel like, ‘Oh, ya I don’t know really’. But what you feel inside cannot be challenged because there is nobody separate inside, in the knowing of life, in the knowing of the being. The being and the knowing is one and the same thing, just like water. Like it’s like oceanic being inside you knowing itself and everything else in relation to that, you know, it’s like this, not the knowledge of the mind that ‘OK, this is the knowledge of the mind’, ‘So when did you know this?’, ‘I think yesterday I did come to know about it.’ So this yesterday means separate. And when you are asked, questioned about knowing, ‘So when did you know this?’, you say, ‘I don’t know when but I’m knowing it right now. I don’t know about when, but I’m knowing it right now.’ And will you know it tomorrow? ‘I don’t know. I will only know tomorrow when it will be there like this or not.’ And like this slowly you kind of move from the mind to the heart. This heart is this being, this ocean-like being inside you, like a space-like being inside you, when being and knowing is one and the same thing. So whether you are your Self or you are knowing your Self is one and the same thing. Then slowly some deeper knowledge takes place, knowledge of the Seer, the acknowledgement of the Seer that, ‘Hey! There is a Seer also!’ which is seeing everything.
So it’s fine, enjoy.

(Excerpts from Online Focus Group, 26th July, 2018)