We want everybody’s approval about our image

Questioner: I like this part about the Doer and think sometimes (that) I am also doing it out of ego. So my ego also wants like I am also interested in the appearance of the creator, so basically I am most of the time wasting energy in appearance ‘ki mai kaise dikhunga’,(eng-How will I look?) like equally important ‘meri image se kya fark padta hai? (eng-What difference my image will make?)

Rajee – Actually it is true, but at the same (time) I want to say that as long as you enjoy the image there is nothing wrong actually but remember the cost of it, the cost will be conflict.

Questioner: This is exactly what I understand.
Rajee – There is nothing wrong in living because mostly what happens is that we are living, maintaining our image. A lot of investment going in it, and still we want life to be happy or we want everybody’s approval about our image that everybody should accept me and respect. And this is not going to happen anyway. Even great Gods’ men came, they were not accepted, because it is a matter of taste, it is a matter of opinion and judgment. Not everybody can give judgment in favour of you that, ‘Hey! you are the best guy happened in life’. So it is going to be a conflicting state always, like there will always be one man who will not like you (Rajee laughs) even if the whole world likes you. And that one man will be heavier for you than anybody else who likes you, this is the ego problem – why this guy does not like me, why everybody likes you, particularly if “everybody likes me” let’s say “one million people like me, why this guy does not like me?” It will pinch you more now because it has capacity to puncture your balloon of image and you will sense that I am not safe as long as this guy is outside of the balloon. (But) Because you are pure intelligence, you can sense much more than you can imagine right now, it is just that you are busy that you don’t experience or exercise your full intelligence and power.

I mean I don’t say that change anything, I say “See Clearly” this is what it is. Then you know what is the cost of it. The desire to be other than what’s happening is coming from this mind which is not mature -(eg) I want ‘chai’ but I don’t want to have acidity. So this is our problem, not seeing things as they are. See everything as it is and be happy.

Anything else you want to say, please you can say.

Questioner – I like this idea about this let-go. I’m still wasting my time worrying about my image

Rajee – Yes, yes, yes, I mean the good news for you is that you have already started sensing it. It is good news. Most of the people living on Earth are not even aware that they are not Aware, are not even conscious that they are not Conscious. Like, they don’t know what it means to be conscious and without being conscious you cannot experience life so they are conscious but they are not as much conscious that they can be, that is what I mean.

Their consciousness is like a power that they have, not the reality that they are. So (for the) rest of themselves, it is like, what is ego? It is the unconscious base from where you are living life and obviously to live life you need consciousness, so it has consciousness but it has only one directional consciousness not this direction (Rajee pointing towards Self). So the base remains in darkness, center remains in darkness from where you live and when center also gets enlightened, it’s amazing. Life is like both ways, like a Two Headed Arrow of Awareness through and through all included and everything is very nicely flowing.

At any point of time anyone of you feel any conflict when you are nicely resting in Yourself, don’t pick up this idea that there is a problem. If you feel conflict just stay, Just Stay and See what’s going on. Because who is experiencing conflict right now? “I am experiencing”. “I am” means what? It is actually life experiencing conflict, life will solve it. You don’t move and then see what happens. This is the state of, you can say, “Let-go” which is like a state you have created out of understanding and beyond that is our natural state which is not even let-go state, it is like let-go activity all inclusive.

(Excerpts from Spontaneous Meetings, Pune)

 

Sense of Incompletion – the driving force of life

When this sense of incompletion is outward oriented then it creates in life; it creates all that can give any sense of completion.

When attended at the very core of it then it unfolds like a divine flower, it expresses itself in most beautiful and loving ways and finally it introduces life to life; it becomes the medium through which life discovers itself.

The sense of incompletion is present in all living beings and it is at the very core of whole life.

So what is this sense of incompletion?
In my understanding, the Sense of Incompletion is the very driving force through which life experiences movement, creation, expression, experiencing and knowing of itself.

At the very core of it this sense of incompletion is divine restlessness with a blueprint of how it will be manifested and finally will be dissolved. Some also call this divine restlessness the heart of the being or the very soul.

When the focus of the being is outward oriented and the attention is mostly stuck in the mind (thought process, beliefs) then we try to cover this rooted sense of incompletion by different experiences of life. Although all experiences work more or less like pain killer for it but most are fine with this model until we get bored of it.

As our attention starts getting free from mind partially, we start sensing that whatever life is bringing to me is not able to resolve this rooted sense of incompletion; it only covers it for the time being. We start wondering that there has to be some other way of living life.

At some point all beings do realize that trying to find a readymade fix for this rooted inner sense of incompletion without knowing it, is like taking different treatments without doing a thorough diagnosis of the disease. So we try to figure out by ourself what exactly is this inner restlessness which we are not able to resolve by doing anything externally. None of our doings seem to help relieve us from this restlessness.

And as we start exploring this sense of incompletion within with neutral mind, we have stumbled upon the treasure of treasures; we have reached to the very core of ourself. This is the seed of pure consciousness packaged by formless in a form of desire to express itself, to know itself. This is the very heart of the form that we are and it is created by life itself, the formlessness.

The more we stay here in this sense of incompletion, the more we see it’s not something negative. It is felt very simply that this sense is a beautiful, sweet presence of life which wants to flow out to express itself and wants to flow in to know its own depths. The sense of knowledge (thought process, beliefs) still plays its role by resisting to this divine sense of restlessness within but cannot distract us anymore since we have tasted the very nectar of our own being, the sweetest thing one can experience.

Slowly the attention which was stuck in mind, starts flowing in into this presence, this divine restlessness; and finally merges with it so much that the doubts of the mind are not given any value. One starts living life from within, a life which flows from inside to outside; a life of beauty, love for all, peace and inner joy.

Hope this sharing helps you see bit more clearly beloved!

Flow of the Heart

Within ourself there is life flow coming out of our heart/self, which is deeper than and beyond mind/thinking process. It is based in the wisdom of intuition; and is in harmony with the whole life, with all beings.
And our heart is like a seed, unfolds like a flower when right climate is given.

Suffering is experienced when we don’t flow with our heart’s flow.
Natural and every growing happiness is experienced when we flow with our heart’s flow.

As long as we have any value for mind/thinking process, we do continue thinking with the hope that it will produce happiness.
Once the limitation of thinking process is exposed, we naturally start looking for alternative ways of living a happy life. And at this point we start knowing and appreciating the ways of intuition and the flow of heart.

What is Transcendence really?

Transcendence is one of the most fundamental approaches, which is very useful in spiritual progress. And it is actually vital element in the process of awakening. Simply put, it is transcending duality. Not the duality that we learn theoretically in spiritual journey, but the duality that we experience ourself in life. Hunger and fulfillment of hunger is one of the simplest examples of duality that we experience in our life. Other dualistic experiences that we have are stress (at body and mind level) and release from it, worrying about something and being free from it, feeling happy and sad etc.

Why you need to transcend duality?
We don’t need to really. Duality itself is never a problem and doesn’t produce any pleasant or unpleasant experiences by itself; in duality everything follows its own nature. Our experience of duality is based on our state and the knowledge we have of nature of things, of life flow. But we would agree that we do have unwanted experiences and try to get rid of them. Basically an unwanted experience is the struggle to be free from a certain level of experiencing and not finding a way out. Although mostly we are not aware of the nature of things here and so we try to remove one part of the dualistic experience while trying to keep the other. And this struggle doesn’t take us anywhere except in more and more tiredness. Here approach of transcendence becomes very useful.

So is transcendence escaping the experience or confronting it?
It is none of them. Both escaping and confronting the experience require us to be engaged with the experience directly, with the hope to remove it. In escaping an experience, we try to become numb about it or try to cover it with some ‘pain killer experience’; basically try to divert our attention from it. Confronting the unwanted experience is commonly seen as living the experience as it is. Although confronting an unwanted experience may wake you up altogether to a different level of your existence, yet it mostly doesn’t because the focus is on removing the experience not transcending it. So this approach also keeps us engaged with and limited to the unwanted experience.

Transcendence is as natural as breathing when we know the right thing
Let me explain with an example. Suppose you are a balloon full of hot air, tied to a thread and stuck in bushes on the earth. You have capacity of rising in the sky and experiencing it’s vastness, you have desire to be free from earth and rise in the sky also. So what need to be done in order for you to rise to the sky? Do you need to push yourself towards the sky or you just need to be free from the bushes on the earth?

Transcending doesn’t really require any push towards the higher level; it only needs freedom from the dualistic level of experience we are in. So if we just don’t hold on to anything at the level of dualistic experience where we are troubled, we simply start rising from this level to a higher level of consciousness. If we can refrain ourself from taking side of any part of the dualistic experience, we get pulled into a deeper level of life than the present level. And this deeper level is the answer to your desire to be free from ‘unwanted experience’. This deeper level has more space, relax, energy and neutrality, you can see much more clearly from there into the two parts of the dualistic experience and can understand better what’s the nature of things.

Those who want to wakeup to your True Nature must understand that you cannot reach to your True Nature by doing a journey into itself, although the first recognition of our True Nature is felt like a journey mostly. The level of duality you are trying to transcend is like an extension out of yourself. If you wish to reach to yourself then don’t try to reach to yourself because every such effort will be another extension of the present level, which is an extension itself. Through effort the best you can do is create an upside-down ‘U’ which is like your attention stretched like rubber from your present level to your deeper level and obviously you will feel stress. That’s why no one can stay in the self by effort. The only way to stay in True Nature is, that don’t stay in the extension of yourself for few minutes and you are naturally pulled into yourself. The example of a fist is very appropriate here. To make a fist you need to put effort. But do you need any effort to bring your hand into its natural state? No, you just need to stop applying force and you have stopped making the fist. The hand will come into its natural state by itself. But remember to have patience and don’t start putting efforts to bring your hand into its natural state.

How not to hold onto anything at the dualistic level?
Explore deeply how you are holding onto anything. As you look into your hold deeply, a release from it happens naturally by itself. It happens because essentially every bond of two things in life is like absence of light; like a gap between the two, full of darkness. Remember darkness is not presence of darkness but absence of light. As you bring light of your neutral seeing into this gap, an effortless detachment happens.

Is there an option to know the Truth?

Dear Seeker of Truth,

Is knowing the Truth one of the options?
If yes then what’s the other option?

Is there any such option of Not knowing the Truth? If there is no such option then why there is struggle in knowing the Truth?

Doesn’t knowing the Truth imply exploration of what is already the case? Then how can there be struggle in exploration of what is already the case.

May be there is a belief that exploration of what is already here, needs special tools, approaches or powers.
Have you tried to explore your present self with the present capacity of exploration that you have?

Anyone who has explored the Truth of who one is within oneself in this moment, with the present capacity of exploration, has hit the Jackpot.

These are just few pointers, which may highlight the blind spots living in the seeing capacity itself.

Are you up for exploration?

Primal Innocence and Sense of Knowledge

Dear Seeker of Truth,

There is an innocence in the depth of all Beings, yet it’s mostly covered by sense of knowledge.
This innocence is pure intelligence, pure capacity of seeing, the mirror of Being in which nature of everything is being revealed all the time.

What seems to cover this primal innocence is the sense of knowledge, the sense that ‘I know this completely’. Sense of knowledge seems to be a collection of conclusions. These conclusions are sort of an agreement in the Being for taking a previous experience to be sufficient to encounter the freshness of this moment.

We don’t need to really remove this collection of conclusions (Sense of knowledge) in order to uncover the primal innocence. All we need is to allow ourself to see and revisit some of these conclusions in openness. Once some of the fundamental conclusions are revisited in openness, it starts becoming clear to us that it’s not really knowledge but more a memory of a direct or indirect experience of life. Slowly less and less value is given to this sense of knowledge and Being starts staying in an intermediate ‘Sense of not knowing’. This sense of not knowing is primal innocence covered with a thin shadow of sense of knowledge. Here value is given more and more to authentic knowing over partial knowing (sense of knowledge). The thin shadow of sense of knowledge fades away slowly by itself due to lack of value given to it.

Have a wonderful day of Clarity