You are actually more and more coming into the immediate mode of being. Like what we call ego is like a time mode of the being. And your True Nature is immediate mode of the being which does not really live in a story which is divided in past, present and future, basically time. So your being that you are, is not really bound to time. The story of this person is bound to time and you are bound to this story and that’s how you are bound to time. Don’t touch your story you are free from time and if you cannot do it, discover who you are. Who are you who is living this story? Whose story is this? Including the story of a spiritual seeker, including the story of the spiritual growth, spiritual awakening included. So this is the purpose basically of this meeting.
This now-ness is the drop of eternal light, on the lotus flower of here-ness. Love is the lover, and love is the beloved. Love is the experience, and love is the experiencer. And you are this lover, and you are This beloved. Let there be this sweetest union, Here and Now. You can only let it happen, you cannot do it. Doing is movement.
The life is moving, and mind is also moving. The moving mind seeing the moving life. It can never see it as it actually is. It can never accurately experience the movement of consciousness, it cannot fully live the experience of the life until it becomes still, until you become still or you jump out of the moving mind into your stillness.
I want to begin like this, that “What is old and what is new?” Everything that is happening is new, everything that has happened is old and not only this, even what is happening right now is becoming old, becoming old like every second it is becoming old. Ultimately we will come to this promptness and immediacy of living life where we can sense, we can see this. It doesn’t mean that we have to discard the old, value the new. In reality there is nothing like new or old which can happen. Everything that happens is new but everything that happens is happening by using this material of consciousness or light you can say which is the old. The oldest you can say. But at the same time, what I am referring to as new is YOU. You are that new and old at the same time. Old in the sense that you have not become just now, you have not been created just now, you have been here and if you understand the meaning of my statement, you will discover that I have been here today, I have been here yesterday, I have been here this year, I have been here last year. I have been here in this phase of my life, I have been here in the last phase of my life also. And slowly you will discover I have been here forever actually. Since the beginning of time I have been here.
It’s all about sensitivity of our seeing and direction of seeing. What we focus, what we value and you are that material which can give you an experience of newness. You are made of this material. Which can alone give you the experience of newness continuously, continuously. But, then what is mind? Then mind is the a collection of imprints of what happened. When it happened it was a beautiful experience, a movement in consciousness. Now it’s not there anymore. It is like consciousness is ocean and it moves and also it has a mind, just imagine if it has a mind, if it has a camera it keep clicking photos from that camera and then now comparing those images with the today’s state of affairs that ‘Today’s waves are not so much correct waves. They are wrong waves, like there is something wrong in my waves today. They are not matching the perfection criteria, they are not meeting the, you know’! That’s how it will be. There is no possibility of comparison of the past with the present like we were talking. In Hindi for present we have one word, Aaj, but for past and future we also have for past and future only one word, kal. Kal is used for past, kal is used for future also.
Ultimately to come to this purity of being and experiencing of life also, one will actually let everything go. When I say let everything go it doesn’t mean that we have control over things and we can let them go or hold them. No, we can imagine, we can capture their images and we can hold onto the image. When we say don’t hold to anything, it means don’t hold to the image or memory of it. See that it is flowing, it is already gone. When we are like this, living life as it happens then we are in sync with life, not holding any personal or local view about it.
(Excerpts from weekly call 1st April, 2018)
Questioner: Joy is a strong word but (now) I can appreciate when a negative experience is happening because not so wrapped up in it.
Rajee: Wonderful! It’s so wonderful actually. This is like being free from some very deep rooted attachment and kind of a misunderstanding. But an experiential misunderstanding not an intellectual one. Because only the experiential understandings can give you the flavour of freedom in a way, even relatively. So if you feel that ‘I am some spaciousness’, it is going to bring joy of relative freedom also. And ultimate freedom in time but if you think that you are spaciousness, it’s not going to help so much. Because what thinks is a only a small aspect of yourself and what feels bondage is another aspect and these two are not communicating with each other yet. They are not in good terms maybe. (Rajee laughing) They need to talk also.
Like this faculty of mind which believes that there is space inside me must also send this message to that feeling, that space inside you, that faculty inside you, which believes that there is very little space, there is only stuff, no space, so that it can communicate. That’s why there is a value of wholistic listening, that you listen wholistically, so that your deeper faculty which believes that there is a trouble, can also listen and get inspired to explore that ‘Is it not really that even this trouble is happening in some sort of a spaciousness inside me?’ Now even if you continue believing that there is a trouble inside you, you will not be able to feel the trouble. This is the beauty of real, real experience. Experiential understanding let’s say, no?
That’s why there is a possibility that somebody may be saying that, ‘I don’t know anything’, and must be and will be absolutely free, actually, from any sense of bondage, and somebody who is saying ‘I know everything about this world and I can talk about everything you bring to me’, and must be living in a very contracted form of consciousness maybe. So it’s nice.
You are welcome to say anything else, if you want.
Questioner: I’d like to say thank you.
(Rajee laughs) Thank you.
Questioner: Thank you very much Rajee.
(Excerpts from Focus Group Meeting 30th July, 2018)
I am just trying to wake up this spirit, this attitude, to know the Truth. Don’t worry if you cannot claim it right now. If you really know the Truth inside you, it is going to claim your whole life by the way, slowly. You don’t have to separately claim this Truth in your life. Because your life is happening in Truth, not vice-versa.
Questioner: I don’t know what to say right now. there’s some mind noise, but… What is that, mind? mind noise?
Rajee: I want to understand what is this mind noise because if you have mentioned it must be important for you.
Questioner: It’s just that, there has been interest in, or distractedness. I can see a tendency for distractedness in this recent period, but again I can simultaneously sense the background, as soon as I become aware of distractedness, the attention to some extent goes to the background.
Rajee: That’s all right then. So it’s not really something important.
Very nice, very nice.
The more you give value to this background, this spaciousness, this stillness inside you, the more everything comes in the right manner, like gets harmonised in a way. This is the beauty of everything being in balance that you get best out of everything, but it doesn’t mean that you can get more than what it can give you. Like body can give you only a certain degree of pleasure and that pleasure is also subjective, meaning it is dependent on the value you give to it. When you don’t give any value to it, it is like useless for you. But we may kind of keep our body in such an imbalanced state where we don’t get the best out of it maybe. In the same manner mind and so on. And when we try to fix these things from a standpoint of being a body and being a person we don’t quite understand what is going on, and we only interfere in the flow. And that only creates more imbalance, let’s say in a way.
Only this spaciousness, this stillness, when you are able to recognise and appreciate, the more and more value you give to this stillness and you stay in it, it is capable of fixing everything in the most appropriate and wholistic manner. Because wholistic is very important. Your body is fixed but mind is not, so you are a healthy body with an awakened presence, but no mind. Or you are an awakened presence, very efficient mind, unhealthy body (Rajee smiles), Or an awakened presence, mind doesn’t work, body is crippled.
We really don’t have any option or alternative to Letting Go. This we must understand slowly, that none of my capabilities can really fix anything that happens at this scale, where awakening happens. So that is why – Seeing as effort, when necessary, Satsang also and Staying in this stillness, like drinking it, like feeling it – this gives you strength to face any adversities or any sense of disorientation or discomfort caused by this breaking out of ego and also it gives enough pure energy, pure light to every level of body-mind where it needs it actually.
(Excerpts from Focus Group Meeting 30th July, 2018)
All I am saying is ‘I am Truth, You are Truth, This is Truth.’ Nothing left to be said actually after this. If anything left to be said it is mainly because there is something moving in you, something is trying to improve itself in you, something trying to complete itself in you, and there is nothing wrong in that by the way because that is also Truth of this moment. But what is your involvement and relation with that which is perfecting itself inside you? That is a very important part of spiritual awakening, that are you attached to that or are you just not attached to anything? Are you involved in that which is perfecting itself inside you or are you just have started resting in you now? That I don’t care who I am, I don’t know what I am, I don’t know really whether I am awareness or I am consciousness, spaciousness or emptiness. I let go of this whole project now, I am now here, just here, in a very simple way here, not in a spiritual way here. In a very ordinary way now I am here. And let me actually first see, is there really anything that needs to be fixed? Or I might be living under some some kind of group hypnosis that everybody is trying to be free from spiritual bondage and so I must also try. And to tell you the Truth, everybody who has become free from this bondage inside has always become free in this way, by seeing that bondage is an illusion. Then how spiritual freedom can be a reality? You are already, always and naturally free.
Truth brings effortlessness from everything. Effortlessness, like you become free from the effort of searching, you become free from the effort of changing, converting it into anything. (Rajee giggles). This is how it is. It is not your responsibility how things are right now. Your joy is to wonder, ‘What exactly is this whole thing inside me? So much is moving, changing.’ There are no names inside you for anything. (Rajee smiles) So you cannot really definitively define things that, ‘OK, so there are like there are million thoughts inside me, 328 feelings inside me right now’, you cannot definitively define like this.
It’s just This, it’s just This!
And the more you lose contact with the mind and the habit of defining, the more it kind of starts merging into itself, like just one thing, it kind of starts losing its boundaries inside you also. Like things happening in the space inside you, they kind of convert, change into space itself, everything is like a space, without anything in space. Do you see what I am saying? So even what is in inside you in the space is your point of view. And if you can relax from that, you see only space inside you, not anything in it. Now if there is nothing in it, only the space, what you will fight with? What you will fix? What you will like to get rid of? What you will like to be free from? (Rajee laughs)
Is it not so, so amazingly beautiful and also funny?
(Excerpts from Focus Group Meeting, 30th July, 2018)
Satsang Intensive Retreat with Rajee for a week in Arambol, Goa.
(In Person or Online)
Registration is Open Now
Dates: 7-13 January 2019
Please write us for more information: email@example.com
About the Retreat:
1. There will be Morning and possibly evening Meetings with Rajee, as well as additional activities. (Morning yoga, Evening Silent Sittings)
2. Reporting time is 6th January, 2019, 7 pm. There will be an evening Introduction Meeting.
3. You are welcome to join in-person in Goa or Online from home.
“I am going to be so happy to meet everyone of you who says like this, that we can kind of finish this whole thing so quickly and then we can really meet and enjoy a cup of tea together. I am not saying that you are not going to need me or a teacher like me. No, you are going to still need me for a while but at least we step into the oceanic Being of our own Self. And then afterward we talk about the Being, not about the mind, Not about something that we have (to) find out first.
No, we don’t have to find out anything, we only have to explore the Truth together. And Truth is by the way always here, no?”
(Focus Group Meetings)
1. Dedicate this week only for Retreat, solving all your work related matters in advance. It is advised to remain in inner Silence throughout the Retreat. Please remember that any Meeting with Rajee is dedicated to discovering your inner Truth.
2. Accommodation/Food: NOT included in the Retreat cost. Please make sure to book a room for yourself before coming.
Rajee will be in Goa in December and will conduct Spontaneous Meetings at Arambol, Goa.
Dates: 10.-20. December 2018
If you are interested to join, please write us an e-mail to meetingswithRajee@gmail.com, with a short background of your spiritual practices and how you know Rajee.