Ugliness is just a perspective

Questioner: Earlier I would be scared of talking to you Rajee because I thought that Rajee is the other and he’s really going to show me all the ugliness in me and now I just want you to show it.

Rajee: You are giving me a very difficult job actually, because all I see in you is beauty and more beauty and more beauty and more beauty and I feel love and more love and more love and more love(smiles). You are giving me a very difficult thing to do to see ugliness in you. How I would do that? Because ugliness is just a perspective, not a reality, ugliness is just a perspective and resistance created out of that point of view that it should not be so, which multiplies actually. Inside us there is like a circles upon circles upon circles, one circle supporting another circle, and like this. Like, ‘All trees should be green’. Very innocent, apparently very innocent statement and it creates now ugliness in life. Any tree which is not green is ugly, you know what I mean? So how can I help you in removing that ugliness which does not exist? There is naturalness, not ugliness. Things are as they are inside you. I can help you relax in your Self, but don’t ask me to help you see the ugliness which does not exist. Or ask me to help you see that there is no ugliness inside you There is only divinity in different forms, in different ways. All of it actually, all of it is divine, the whole of you is divine, not just the presence or the stillness.

(Excerpts from Focus Group Meeting, Pune)

The other ‘person’ can highlight your personal mind

Questioner: Namaste Beloved, when you were talking about there is no other and the other is just something inside you, it just stirred something where I just felt that when I was meeting other, as such, I was scared of my own projection that I would see outside and when you said that there is no other outside, I could just see that there are just projections then and nothing else.

Rajee: It is true actually. When we try to avoid ugliness outside of our Self, we actually are trying to avoid ugliness inside of our Self which is highlighted by some situation or some person. It is true. I’m not saying that remove it or change it or do anything, just know that it is so, that is what I mean. So that we start working on the right platform or right level, right direction and we kind of stop cursing or blaming or fighting with people, which don’t even know that they are triggering your ugliness inside you. The other ‘person’ can highlight your personal mind and suppressed or hidden or unconscious components, which constitute the personal construct but the teacher in the form of other can highlight your Truth. This is the value of meeting a teacher or being in the presence of a teacher. It highlights your Truth which is beyond your personal components and construct. It’s a very direct thing. So use both. It will be used actually anyway, life will decide, that you will be still meeting other people while you are meeting the teacher also, no? Like this, so that what is holding your attention and energy inside you, or holding your value, will be highlighted.

(Excerpts from Focus Group Meeting, Pune)

Meeting the Other

One very kind of significant and kind of funny thing I want to also share here, where is the other? Is it out there or is it in here? Actually it is in here. The other that we see outside of our body is actually in here. We never meet the other which is outside of our body in a full sense, in an emotional sense. We will just physically meet the physicality of life, our physical body meets the physicality of life outside of itself, but the one who lives in this body does not really meet the other outside, out there, it meets the other in here, actually. So all the others which I see outside of my Self are actually living inside me here,. That is why we kind of have a fear of meeting the other outside of our Self, and that is why a meeting with the teacher can be used in such a powerful way, that you can meet the other inside You and see that there is no other, that you can discover that there is just one. Because the teacher is not projecting the other-ness in the form of this egoic flavor or stickiness. It is like pure emptiness embracing you and but still presenting itself as somebody that you see, perceive as the other, like the form is still there.

Finding the center

Rajee: Just try to feel from where you are speaking, like from where these words are originating. Where is your centre from where you are speaking right now? Just try to sense it right now. Lightly, just lightly sense, you don’t need really like an aggressive seeing here.

And as a matter of fact, in this state where we are together, even not speaking anything is loud enough to sense where is the centre from where you are not speaking. I don’t mean that you are going to find a centre but I’m saying that you are clear that you are not finding a centre right now.

Questioner: Yes exactly.

Rajee: That’s what I mean.

And in a very sober and normal, natural state, this clear seeing, in a sober and simple ground, where body-mind and its background is still there, is a sure way to remove the illusion of separation. The illusion of separation is removed like this, otherwise it will continue, because you are in your deep, deep Samadhi state and there is nobody else, and when you come out again there is somebody who is living and now questioning what to do and who I am,. So we are bringing both of them together here now in this sober simple simple simple seeing.

(Excerpts from Focus Group Meeting, Pune)

The Wall of Illusion and the Conflict

Questioner: First I was finding falling into my Self very, very easily and the last eight days or so I’m feeling like there is a wall and I’m not able to get past that. It’s pretty strong and there’s been kind of a bit of a conflict within me.

Rajee: I think there are two ways to approach it: one is the way of the doer, the seeker, which is Explore this wall that you feel inside you. Explore means not try to destroy it but try to exactly figure out and feel and see what exactly it is, how exactly it feels. But what is happening mostly is, there is no wall. And still we feel there is a wall, so now that which does not exist inside us. But the experience is very strong and realistic, we must bring our light to that and see the illusoriness of it and that’s how you will become free from it. Until then you will be not really serving your desire to be free from this wall, but you will be actually serving the belief that there is a wall. This is the seeker’s way.

The other way I call Satsang, Come to Satsang, and connect with Satsang, when you are feeling this wall, if you have the opportunity, listen to the recordings. The more you connect to the recording or to the Satsang, the more you start falling in your own silence which is already beyond this wall. So you don’t have to cross this wall ever anyway, now this wall can be there and you are still behind it already and you have reached home, because any effort we need to reach home inside our Self, we are in some way more or less supporting the belief that there is something in between you and the home.

(Excerpts from Focus Group Meeting, Pune)

What is the focus area here?

If everything is allowed to be the way it is, what objection do you have about your thought movements? Why don’t you focus on the silence of your being? And rejoice and be happy? What do you want? To be happy or to kill your desires, your thoughts, and feeling movement? What do you want really? Like what is the focus area here? That you want to be peaceful, or you want to be free from thought movement? If you say ‘I want to be free from thought movement’, I will ask you ‘Why? Why?’ Because you want to be peaceful, but you can be peaceful without changing anything about thoughts or any movement inside you.
So this is an invitation in Satsang and this is a possibility in Satsang to connect with that silence which is always present inside you and does not demand any change in the body or mind state in any form, in any way.

Feel your Self in the body

Your body is sitting where you are sitting right now. Your mind movement or other activity is happening inside this body. And where are you? Are you sitting in this body or are you sitting as this body? If you are sitting as this body it is alright. Just feel, how does it feel to sit as this body? If you are sitting in this body, explore yourself, who is sitting in this body. Feel your Self.

Connect to this Silence, Right Now

There is a natural silence here, acknowledge and feel this more right now, there is a natural silence here, there is a sort of a peacefulness here right now. Enjoy, enjoy this more, you can solve problems later, and if you can connect with this more, you will have to solve less and less problems. Only you need to rest and rejoice in your own being which is possible by connecting to this silence of this moment – This-ness.

This silence is not really separate from you, it is not something that you are visiting. Actually this is your own nature. This is your Self. (Rajee smiles).
So whatever way you want to connect to this silence, connect. Whether you explore it, feel it, see it, see into it, but do something with it, don’t stay alone or separate from it. Come in contact with it right now. It is an opportunity to fall out of your ego state into your natural True state. Don’t try to do anything specific, just do what is naturally possible for you to do with this silence. This silence is here, and you are here, this is more than enough, that you acknowledge that the silence is here. If you feel like drowning in this silence, it’s perfect, it’s beautiful. So just whatever you feel, do with this silence but only with this silence right now, with nothing else inside you. Everything else is here but not being given any value right now. You’re not rejecting anything, you’re not removing anything from inside.

Who is maintaining this silence? Whose silence is this? And where exactly is this silence? Is it inside or it is outside? Or maybe is it beyond both maybe? Don’t try to figure out. I’m just speaking so to bring your attention to it, not so that you can understand. So don’t try to understand. Live it and feel it right now.

(Excerpts from Focus Group Meeting, 13th August, 2018, Pune)

See clearly what do you want

I’m just helping you see exactly clearly what do you want, and that’s more than enough for this inner flower to start opening up by itself. Nobody has to do anything about it, except stop wasting time, or stop entertaining non-essential or what is resisting to it. What is resisting to it seems to be like our superficial mind desires, which are mind-body desires, basically which are more like fantasies and imaginations than actual, based on actuality of life.