When our own existence becomes a burden

The full Truth is known when our own existence becomes a burden, when our existence becomes a burden like ‘I can see everything and yet I’m not happy’, you know like this, ‘Like I’m not effortless, I’m not relaxed and (Rajee exhales) (not) in Heaven’. Then we dissolve, then we pray for dissolution. Then the capacity of pure seeing evolves in itself in such a way at some point that it kind of becomes clear to it that my very existence is the only problem, otherwise all is Truth.

(Excerpts from Focus Group 9th August, 2018)

Simply See – without Intention

All the forms of seeing are generally attached to some intention, to some desire. And if somehow we can achieve this what I call simple seeing or just seeing – Just Seeing – if you can kind of start, if you learn how to rest in this free space or state of you, from where you can see without any intention, then the Truth of life is revealed actually. The Truth of body, Truth of mind, Truth of relations, Truth of sense of identity, Truth of experiencing – everything.

Whenever you see anything inside you, you have some intention to see it, no? Like we want to see, so that we can change it in a certain way and even when we don’t have a kind of explicit desire to change it, still there is some implicit desire that I will keep seeing it and I will become free from it. So still, there is a desire here and so the seeing is not free yet. Only the free seeing, a free look can make you free actually,

Just remember that seeing and intention has to be differentiated. I’m not saying that you remove or separate the intention with the seeing, at the level inside you where it is happening – No. Only see this that my seeing is influenced by or accompanied by intention or originated from intention. And when you can see this, your deeper, more relaxed and free seeing kind of gets activated in you, wakes up in you. This pure seeing, this effortless seeing, this just seeing is that Awareness which is actually, already and always Free.

(Excerpts from Focus Group 9th August, 2018)

You Have Come Home (Part 2 of 2)

Your intention is genuine to learn, my intention is genuine to teach and still we will not succeed. Do you see this? So both are genuine parties and still we will not succeed, just because of this. So would it not be better to do this fundamental work first, than to continue believing we are growing, we are growing and we don’t grow. Or believing that we are reaching and we don’t reach? Would it not be better like this? And I want to tell you, if this conceptual framework of mind or communication system can be exposed fully, You Have Come Home. (smiles)

You will not need to use any concepts for communication of Truth between us at least. So it is not that we need to use concepts so strictly to communicate the Truth – for me, to listen from you and for you to listen from me. It is that, you insist, you are holding onto the concept too strongly inside, using them also very strictly and plus we are not synchronizing our meaning also. Then it’s too dangerous. So let us continue using concepts, which is unavoidable but at least synchronize our meanings, Isn’t it like this?

(see Part 1)

Our Communication Protocol (Part 1 of 2)

Are you sure what I mean by witnessing? Do you also mean the same? Would it not be better to discuss about these things first? Would it not be better to test our communication protocol, before we start communicating? Would it not be better to test our email system, let’s say messaging system?

Would it not be common sense to be first of all to come to the ground of reality between me and you, as right now when we are together like this as a teacher-student that you also understand, you also have the same meaning in your mind, your understanding about this concept is same as mine also? Would it not be better? Otherwise, do you imagine how dangerous it is, for us to use concepts?

There was one man, who sent his servant to market buy two bananas. He brings one banana.
He says, “Where is the second banana?”
He says, “It’s here.”
He says, ”Listen, I am asking you, where is the second banana?”.
He says, “It’s here”.
”Are you crazy? Do you not understand, what do you mean, what I mean by second?”
He said, ”I do fully understand.”
He said, ”Then where is the second banana?”
He says, “It’s here.”
He says, “Oh OK”. Then he kind of stops and thinks again, “OK, where is the first banana?”
He says, ”I ate it.”
He says, ”How?”
He peels it off and eats the second banana, “Like this.”

Do you see the risk of using concept; second banana. And we will continue talking like this.

(see Part 2)

Trying to solve any spiritual problem

This is the problem with trying to solve any spiritual problem. You can solve it but what about the one who is affected by the problem? That will still remain and that will find another problem because life is change and it is rejecting the change basically. It is saying a certain change is not acceptable, a certain change is acceptable. So today it will be peaceful, tomorrow it will be again noisy. Why don’t you jump to your true position, the witnessing position where you don’t feel these things? Now you can actually play with the life.

Affected by Negativity

Questioner: There is sort of just like a negative emotional state. I am unaffected by this state, and yet there’s a feeling that I am affected by the state and it sort of needs to be gone.

Rajee: It is a very valuable time, when you are affected by anything, so don’t miss this opportunity, don’t try to fix things quickly. If you try to fix things quickly here, particularly when you are having a negative experience, you are going to miss an opportunity which can actually wake you up to your Self beyond this whole game of experiencing, experience and experiencer to your true true witnessing position.

Try to understand one thing that what is right now affected by this negativity is that portion of consciousness which will be anyway affected by the movement of consciousness, so that is why it is possible for you to experience positivity after some time or you can do something about it and it will become positive. So you can, actually there is a possibility here, when you are feeling a negativity you can feel positivity by doing something. But it will not make you free from this field where you experience negativity, so after positivity you will again feel negativity and then afterward you will have to bring it back to positivity again and then again it will turn into… it’s like a pendulum.

So what is being affected by the negativity right now is not really the consciousness which is playing in the form of waves of life; It is your attachment, attachment of the Seer with this changeful which is suffering actually, which is demanding that it should not be like this. And this is why it is so invaluable to utilize this experience when you are feeling any negativity, to be very, very crystal clear, like
What is my relation with it?
What is my objection from this negativity?
Why I want to reject this negativity right now?

If you can be very, like feel, like feeling more, seeing more neutrally, like how exactly I am affected by this negativity, then you can actually discover That which is affected and That which is not affected both, this is what I call simply seeing. You just Simply See.

Expectations and the Being

The purpose of this meeting is not really to entertain. It is to meet.

These meetings are not to facilitate you achieve what you want to achieve. Although on the face of it, superficially, it feels like this. But it is to help you wake up – wake up from the bondage to time. Bondage to time is bondage to suffering. Time is suffering, because time brings change. So you can never experience stability. And if you also are in this mode of expecting stability in the field of time, that is how you will suffer. So time is changing, everything is changing in time. You enjoy by seeing the nature of things that OK everything is changing. Then no problem then you cannot suffer from time. So what suffers from time then? Our misunderstanding about how things are and that brings expectations. I am not saying wrong expectations, I am saying expectations.

The very effort, the very attitude of expectation is wrong. The Being does not expect anything. Being that you are does not expect anything. It just is. And it feels so excited about how life unfolds in front of it. It comes from the unknown womb of the being, your own womb and unfolds in this emptiness, in this spaciousness. And the way it unfolds the Being feels very excited because it is new to it. Being itself does not know this, how it will unfold, which way it will go, and it doesn’t want to know also because why it should know? It will spoil the whole joy of the game. But at certain point it becomes clear to the Being that all that can happen is nothing but a wave, a wave on the ocean. And how does it matter? How does it matter what form of the wave? What intensity? What speed? What is the life, how long it will live? How does it matter? Then the Being has started becoming restful, in itself.

Your Story and Time

You are actually more and more coming into the immediate mode of being. Like what we call ego is like a time mode of the being. And your True Nature is immediate mode of the being which does not really live in a story which is divided in past, present and future, basically time. So your being that you are, is not really bound to time. The story of this person is bound to time and you are bound to this story and that’s how you are bound to time. Don’t touch your story you are free from time and if you cannot do it, discover who you are. Who are you who is living this story? Whose story is this? Including the story of a spiritual seeker, including the story of the spiritual growth, spiritual awakening included. So this is the purpose basically of this meeting.

Moving mind sees the moving life

This now-ness is the drop of eternal light, on the lotus flower of here-ness. Love is the lover, and love is the beloved. Love is the experience, and love is the experiencer. And you are this lover, and you are This beloved. Let there be this sweetest union, Here and Now. You can only let it happen, you cannot do it. Doing is movement.

The life is moving, and mind is also moving. The moving mind seeing the moving life. It can never see it as it actually is. It can never accurately experience the movement of consciousness, it cannot fully live the experience of the life until it becomes still, until you become still or you jump out of the moving mind into your stillness.